your living eulogy
originally written 08.25.03

this is your life,
i find you lost
in a false mask:
beneath a frost.
this is not you,
you seem so cold.
you were so sweet,
did you grow old
of being pleasant?
'cause now you're bitter.
your warm summer
is now a winter
caught up with people
and losing yourself.
i'm afraid of landings
'cause you fell.

this is your life,
now you're so jaded.
what happened to you?
you're so sedated.
do you realize
who you once were
before the season
of your change occured?
you were sweet once,
even once sincere.
i used to matter,
now that's not so clear.
you think you're so lost,
you think you're so found,
i think you're confused
you've fallen down.

where did you go?
you disappeared
in front of me,
you're not here.
you're not the same,
you're not you.
what the hell
did they do
to you?