drowning

originally written 09.10.03

i want to be
so lost with you,
these words you say
tear me in two.
i don't know
what you need,
but i need you
to need me.

but if you don't
i'd like to say i understand,
you need to know
it's not so simple: i can't.
we've lost control,
this whole thing's so out of hand.
i'm in too deep,
deeper than i ever planned.

drowning in words, drowning in noise,
lost in your crowds, lost in your void.
how much longer will it be like this?
it's been so long since i felt your kiss.

i want to be
found in your light--
i wish you'd set me
within your sight.
the words you say
cut like a knife.
could you fit me
into your life?

but if you can't
i'd like to say i'd understand,
you need to know
it's not so simple, i can't.
we've lost control,
this whole thing's so out of hand.
i'm in too deep,
deeper than i ever planned.

drowning in words, drowning in noise,
lost in your crowds, lost in your void.
how much longer will it be like this?
it's been so long since i felt your kiss.