five-ten. now...
originally written 08.09.02

is this where i want to be?
i used to be so sure where i wanted to be.
i never was wrong...
it's just that i know
where i want to be five-ten years from now:

a nice home, a loving wife,
a job i love, a family i can support
and be there for.

the thing is that i never know
where i want to be now, five-ten minutes from now.
has this completely blurred my
conception of reality?
i'm afraid to find out what i really want
now.
i think i'm going to find that some of the
things i have now aren't really what i want
now.
now,
my conception of the future has become
not-so-clear, as the lack of my grasp onto the present was never there.