[ o h ]dear
originally written 08.12.02

the things that once seemed
right, and made sense to
me yesterday, don't really make
sense anymore. the things
i believed in, the things that i
fought for, and worked so
hard for, don't seem to be as
worth it as i used to think. how do
i let go of the efforts that
i so strongly believed in? it's like
winning the lottery and realizing that
you don't really want the million
dollars, or being offered a promotion and
realizing you want to work for
another company...while this corporation has
given you everything that you'd ever needed.
how do you give all this up?