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originally written 12.14.02

lost...that's the cost
for all the things i've done--
like when i broke the sun.
took away light, no sight
for those who wanted to see
what it would like to be with me.
karma sucks, it sucks me in
i sink to swim, i sink it in.
i've paid the price,
i prayed to christ.
no answers, just silence.
inside me: emo-violence.
i cry...but no shoulders.
sometimes, i wish it could be over.
all the tears, all my fears...
no more years.
just bleak black blankness.